My Heart

The cry of my heart, these last few weeks the Lord has really just been referring who i am just through worship and reading, it has been such an amazing time in my life, were the Lord has been challenging me in why i serve him and why i have chosen to Love him over everything else, he has constantly been testing me in all aspects of life of were my heart is, in areas such as family friends, future wife, relationships he just testing me to see if these things are more important them him. and i know this for a fact, cause it is own my mind everyday, i haft to give it to him even though i don't want to sometimes, and sometimes i don't. Do you think that i want to miss my friends weddings, and my nephews growing up an the relationships with my family, not at all, i want to be their for them i want to Love on them i want to tell them that i love them in person not over a video i want to hold my brothers kids and tell them that i love them. But i know the Lord has called me elsewhere for this time in y Life, its a struggle right now in my life to constantly be giving that up to him, it has been one of the most loneliest times in my life, but it has been a time when all i have is the Lord, and all i depend on is Him. Im not telling you this so that you will feel bad for me or that you will think that i am better then you because i have given this to the lord, Im telling you this because I struggle with the same things that we all do, and that is giving it all to God, and im asking you to pray for me about this, cause its something that is hard for me to let go of. I love you guys very much i really do.