God Rocked Up

This past week and a half has been challenging, we had Glen come and speak on the fear of the LORD which was amazing, he had some really neat analogies, about what we as people tend to think of when we think of God, like he used the example of a sword and how we tend to think of God as just a one edged sword and he is just loving and gentle and anything that is good, but we forget about the other edge of the sword, (FEAR OF THE LORD) He was just talking about fearing the lord and how Good all this other stuff is but we need to have a fear of who God is, and not just be passive about it cause it is really crucial in our walk with God, it is so crucial I think cause if we just think God as this sweet kind man I think we are missing the point of the God we serve. Cause the God I serve is in Love with me and died for me and will fight for my soul for eternity, even if I mess up he still loves me, and he still desires a deeper relationship with me. This is just one of the many analogies that Glen shared with us. he was just an amazing speaker and made it real clear that we need to not just take his word for it but actually look it up in the Bible and form our own opinion about it.

All last week I felt really empty and felt dry in my walk with God, but I kept on pressing in to the word, cause I believe that God will reveal things about your character, and what you really think, when you don’t feel God’s presence in your life, but if you keep on persevering he will reward you beyond belief, so with that im going to tell you about this week which was prayer week, it all started Monday morning on the 15th of February. The start of prayer week begins with a morning of just giving where there is a need, and what that looks like is someone will raise their hand and be like I have a need of 2,000 dollars and we will write it on the board and their was several people that had a need it could be any amount, so it starts off and it comes up to be about 70,000 dollars that needs to be met and there is about 60 to 70 people that are their in this room, and we take a couple of min and pray, and as we feel to give, we go up and write it on a piece of paper and put it in a pile and then they write it on the board, and it was amazing how God showed up and between all of us their I think there was about 50,000 dollars given which was incredible, (thank you God) that’s only the morning of day one of prayer week, so the day goes on and we have night worship and it was good but people hearts weren’t really in the right place, so the night finished, and the next day starts and it’s the same it was like there was just this heavy blanket on us and we could not get it off, so that day goes by and nothing is really happening with God. So day three (wed) starts and the Holy Spirit is really pressing on some peoples hearts and what we do is have an open mike and they can come up an tell whats on their hearts, and people start coming up and sharing just things about their life like fears, problems, things they are ashamed of, and when they do we pray for them. Or if we have a word from God that we feel like we should share with them, so that morning we are praying for this girl on our DTS, and im just standing there and all of a sudden the holy spirit comes on me and im like shaking and sweating and he tells me to tell her that she needs to declare who the lord is in her life, and she does. But the Holy Spirit was still on me and told me to tell her again to declare his name again. And she does, and then the Holy Spirit puts on my heart the story of how peter denied Jesus three times, and he was just like, ask what I ask peter, (peter do you love me) and at this point I am shaking like crazy and im telling her this, and The Holy Spirit put it on my heart again that she needs to declare my name one more time, and at this point she is weeping and she really started to let God into her life and she really started to let God get a hold on her heart, and it was just really cool that I got to be used by God to do his work. And then the day continues to night lectures. And this is really when God starts to get a hold of our hearts it was on the 17 of feb at 7:00pm. And we where worshipping with a song that leon put on off of his computer and he told us to just lay down and see if God puts anything on your heart, the second I put my head to the ground the Lord told me to share a story that I have only shared with Jeremy, and I sat there and it just kept resounding like a gong in my heart, and im like God why do you want me to share that with all these people, and he did not answer so I laid there for a few more min and my heart started beating faster and faster, until finally I was like God if some one talks about repentance or a picture ill go up, and it wasn’t two seconds and leon said I felt like this is a time of repentance and said the word like three times in a row so I was like ok God I don’t know what this is going to do for anybody but ok ill do it cause this story I was going to tell really impacted me and it was a time when I gave into earthly desires and almost got arrested. So I go to get up and my friend, (little sister) looks at me and told me that she couldn’t move, and im like are you serious, thinking she is joking and she is like yes im serious, so I said just lay there cause God may be trying to reveal something to you. So I get up to go repent in front of all these people.

So after that I went and sat down and im like God why did you want me to make myself vulnerable in front of all these people and im just sitting there crying my eyes out cause the Holy Spirit was on me. and im just sitting there and God said you did what I told you to do, and right after that I felt a peace, and other people started coming up there and confessing these things that where from the deepest part of their hearts, That they really had a problem with, and it was amazing cause God used me to start that, im sure he would of did it another way if I wouldn’t of listened to what he was putting on my heart, but the fact that he used me in my imperfection to start something that will reign in my heart forever, is amazing and I feel blessed and honored that God would use me for that.

So here I am sitting on cloud 9, so stoked to be apart of What God is doing in my friends Life’s, and my own. liz the girl I talked about earlier is still on the floor and there are people praying for her, and im walking back and forth in the room just praying here I am Lord completely broken for you I have nothing to give, you have striped me naked there is nothing that is not revealed to you or man that is holding me back, im just like Lord use me to glorify your name and bless others for your sake, not mine. So im walking back and forth right by liz and every time I walk by her, the Holy Spirit is putting the word choice on my mind and he just repeats it like 10 times almost every time I walk by her, and he is saying to me she has to make a choice and she is not going to move until she does. And at that time I go and sit next to her and she still cant move, and I told her this message that the Holy Spirit was putting on my heart, and miss Tricha was like that is spot on, she is on a journey right. Im thinking like what do you mean she is on a journey right now. So this where the second part of this journey picks up because I came in about mid way through. So im sitting right by her head and she is fully under the holy spirit and she is talking about Jesus and where she is at with him and there in this place of darkness but Jesus is right next to her, and she starts talking about how these people are burning and suffering, and all of a sudden the Holy Spirit Hits me and it feels like a wave, and he reveals that she is in hell but Jesus is with her, and I just start crying cause I can feel what she is seeing and my heart was just hurting just in pain, and the whole time she was on this journey I could feel the emotions of the fathers heart and the suffering of the things she was seeing and it was just amazing. The journey keeps going I cant remember all of it but I will do my best to describe the things I heard and felt, and it was very clear that the Lord was showing her heaven and hell. and as she furthered on in this journey and was just describing where she was at and she started to come out of this darkness and into the light and as she was walking with Jesus she was talking about what he looked like and what he was wearing,

And God was still revealing his heart through me and I have never experienced the Holy spirit like this before, im still bawling God is still using me to show his heart, I cannot use words to describe it, it is over whelming, the joy the laughter the suffering the pain the love, were all flowing through my heart I could feel all these things at once, it was crazy but absolutely amazing. And liz kept on speaking to Jesus and he was telling us about being persecuted for being Christians, even by people in our church, and just how he is bringing new leaders and how we should never doubt him cause he is always with us, and how we should love with a whole heart, it was absolutely amazing cause Jesus was speaking to liz, im not joking this was the most amazing thing I have ever been a part of,

So praise God.

Thank you God for speaking. I will never forget this day, for it was the day that God spoke to our friend liz and I was able to be a part and what God was doing in her life, thank you. I would just like to say if you hear God knocking on the door of your heart answer it put aside all your fear and pride and do what he tells you to do, cause if you do, God will reveal what he wants in your heart and as well as others, and it will impact those around you and maybe for the rest of their life. Like he did to liz yesterday, thank you God. And the things that I am writing about are things that I have seen and heard and I am telling you this only to Glorify Gods name.

Love ya

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